Why Do You Believe in God?

he asked me. Just a minute ago he firmly decided that if God really does exist, He wouldnt care whether some Dr. R in the middle of sacramento believed in Him or not.

Dr. R looked puzzled by his own quesion, conciously preparing himself to challenge, object and reject my answer.

Dr. R, this blog is for you, and for anyone else who shares his curiosity....or maybe it is more than simply being curious.

Even in the fact that your mind questions, already means you are searching. Sometimes you search for what can validate and solidify your own understanding, sometimes you search for what you feel can be tackled philosophically. You may feel like a winner temporarily. However, while the mind will be satisfied, your heart will be unfulfilled because, instinctively, you will feel there is a hole in your soul... and there is more to life than living.

Dr. R, I believe in God because: He is my Creator, He is my Savior, He chose to Love me, a sinner. I love God. In Him I find true Happinness, in Him I am fulfilled, and In Him is my purpose here on earth.

Faith is a beautiful aspect of life, so powerful- that it requires no proof or fact. Faith is something that cannot be taken away by any physical force. It is what drives one to continue living, it is trusting in the future, in tomorrow, in every minute ahead.

Having received Faith from God, I can tell you it is more than believing. It is Knowing, 100%, that you have encountered Truth by His grace. Your soul is content to know that life with God is eternal Happiness. Your heart does not thirst, nor does it search any longer. You know that your Father in Heaven is holding you by the hand, and through anything in life, He will not let go of you. I see it, I feel it, I know it.

It is something that the world can never imitate. It is more than a feeling, or a mere emotional high. Science fails to experience anything like it despite their wonderful discoveries.

you, Dr. R, my friend, can know the Truth too. It is only when you stop searching with a hardened heart...that you would reveive the gift and ask: "How can people not believe in God?"

I invite you to share my happiness with God. Read His letter, personalized to you. The Bible.

On the Edge of the Unknown

There comes a time when nothing seems clear. When and where should I take my next step? What should I choose? Why do I feel so confused? How come this is so frustrating? How come there is no clarity? This does not feel like where I should go! Lord, why me?

This is one of those times when I feel on the edge of the unknown. I feel anxious. Not knowing what in the world to expect. In my mind, thousands of concerns and fears gradually grow to elephant proportions. Tears threaten to spill over, but I feign calm. But there is one question that always rings out: What's next? I feel that my womanly intuition should be able to correctly signal to me a feeling of right and wrong to guide me forward. But that's not the case. Intuition...feeling only a static signal. Ideas...none whatsoever. Lost? Yes. Help? Aha.

I am at a crossroads. Uncertain, confused, and a tad bit mad at myself. Why am I taking this time of unknown so hard? Is this a major turn in my life? Why in the world do I have a sense of urgency to know? To know and see ahead of time where I will be...

I search through the Word of God and I find these golden words: We walk by faith not by sight (2 Corinthians 5:7) and then I understand, that only faith in the Lord will help me to step over that edge of the unknown. Sight or intuition not needed.

CRAM...CRAM...CRAM! ...What's the Analogy?...

As I was deliberately trying to figure out the best way to cram an entire semester's worth of information into my head for the finals, slowly the dosage calculations and the coupled reactions of the Krebs cycle drifted out of my mind and this analogy caught my attention instead:

Why did I wait until the very last day before the finals to start studying? Why didn’t I just study a little at a time and devote time to actually LEARN the material throughout the semester/ rather than just cramming it in my head so that I can dump it out for the exam and forget about it the very next day? Why is this such a consistent pattern…will I ever learn the lesson?

…whether I learn my lesson in regards to studying for the finals in the world of education is 1 thing, but more important is the analogy I am about to make with studying for the tests that we face in our Spiritual life which we call “trials”. This is the more important lesson that I need to understand.

I think it’s safe to say that every Christian will face trials at one point of their life or another. (The Bible says so)… think for a moment here of trials as “finals” in our Spiritual life. Once we are at a stage in our life where our faith needs testing, God gives us a “final”… Somehow we college students get used to being so laid back throughout the semester and then end up trying to catch up right before the test/ or even in between tests (that’s me right here! ) ( oh, and please don’t get offended if you think I’m accusing everyone of being this way, not at all! Mainly I’m just referring to myself here…) Switching back over to the Spiritual Life aspect of being tested, God tests our faith by allowing trials and tribulations to come our way. If we aren’t prepared before the trials come, it just makes it that much harder and more difficult for us to accept them, know the right action to take, and we all of a sudden start praying more and reading the Bible more (in hopes to find a clear revelation of what to do/ how to act in a given situation). What if we actually took the time to study the Word of God consistently in our everyday lives instead of waiting for a time when we really desperately need to know God’s will to take out the Bible and start “cramming” – flipping through the pages and trying to find the answers…What if we consistently built that Bible knowledge and applied it in our lives daily…wouldn’t it be so much easier to take the “finals” – accept the trials that we face with faith and courage-? Wouldn’t we already be prepared and know how to act from previously already going over that in our personal Bible Study? And what if we applied the rule of studying 3 hours out of class for every 1 hour of lecture spent in class (or some crazy number the professors tell you) into our Spiritual life and studied the Scriptures at home for that many hours outside of the church Bible Studies?...Wouldn’t we be more prepared to fight the battles of temptations, accept trials with joy, and “pass” the course that God may be testing us on?...

The finals we face in our schools/ colleges/ universities/ etc- test our knowledge of what we have been studying in the past. If we actually learn the material and know how to apply it, it’ll be that much easier for us to pass the final with a good grade without having to pull all-nighters cramming for it.

The “finals” we face in our Spiritual lives test our faith. If we are spiritually strong Christians and prepare ourselves by being persistent in studying the Scriptures and consistent in prayer everyday in our lives, then when the days of trials come, they won’t catch us by surprise.


The worst thing that can possibly happen when we aren’t prepared for the finals at our schools is we could fail…fail the test, fail the course, etc. but comparing that to the BIG picture I’m trying to make here is that if we are not prepared for the Spiritual trials that may come, if our faith fails …that outcome is worse than getting an F- on any other test.

…If there is anything else I can add to this already supper long post, it’s this…I just want to encourage everyone to really take the time to MAKE TIME for Bible study, not just an hour or two at the church/ youth Bible Studies, not just the “read a few chapters to check it off my list” type of studying, but really just investing time to apply the Word of God personally in your lives so that your faith and relationship with God would grow stronger and stronger….(and once those trials come your way…you can be prepared to face them with a joyful smile!)

*( This post applies to me more than anyone b/c I know I need to improve my time of studying the Bible… but I do hope you consider to do so as well. If anyone is offended by anything written here, please let me know. That was not my intention at all. If you can add anything to this, please do so in the comments…)

May God Bless!

p.s….Congradulations to those of you who faced finals in your schools and passed!!!

The Hand That Rocks The Cradle Is The Hand That Rules The World

Blessings on the hand of women!

Angels guard its strength and grace,

In the palace, cottage, hovel,

Oh, no matter where the place;

Would that never storms assailed it,

Rainbows ever gently curled;

For the hand that rocks the cradle

Is the hand that rules the world.

Infancy's the tender fountain,

Power may with beauty flow,

Mother's first to guide the streamlets,

From them souls unresting grow—

Grow on for the good or evil,

Sunshine streamed or evil hurled;

For the hand that rocks the cradle

Is the hand that rules the world.

Woman, how divine your mission

Here upon our natal sod!

Keep, oh, keep the young heart open

Always to the breath of God!

All true trophies of the ages

Are from mother-love impearled;

For the hand that rocks the cradle

Is the hand that rules the world.

Blessings on the hand of women!

Fathers, sons, and daughters cry,

And the sacred song is mingled

With the worship in the sky—

Mingles where no tempest darkens,

Rainbows evermore are hurled;

For the hand that rocks the cradle

Is the hand that rules the world.

-William Ross Wallace

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY (AND TO FUTURE MOTHER'S TOO OF COURSE)!!!

{ a lil car accident and a moment of truth }

After my 12hour night shift, I walk to my car thinking about, of course, my pillow.

well that thought came to a rude halt when my car sounded like this: drrrrrkakakakakrkrkrrkrr rrr rrr rrr rrr

yea, my battery. So, as I hopelessly try to use whatever's left of my sleeping brain, I call the hospital's parking peeps. Well they kindly tell me they can't help since I wasn't parked on the hospital parking lot. boo-hoo

As I look up to heaven for some kind of miracle, I notice a sign that says "NO PARKING 6pm-8am" it was 7:55am. so I turn on my blinker lights and call my daddy-O to the rescue.

Here I notice one of the hospital parking peeps and I wave him down (even though i know he can't help)...well comming outta his car he tells me he can't help me, opening up my hood he explains why, and as he puts the two red and black thingimagiggies, he tells me he is known to be a jerk. I reassured him he has a big heart of endless gold and I will always remember this moment forever and will tell everyone who thinks he's a jerk they are wrong. well, not exactly. but I did say thank you.

As he started my car, the rest of my brain fell asleep and I kept smiling and saying thank you with my eyes practically shut. poor guy. I don't even bother to check my hood.

Well, on my way home, I think about how frustrated I was, my stupid car and the stupid battery, and the darn parking people and their rules. and Why did dad get me this battery that's probably shipped all the way from a village in Moldova no one knows existed....and I got so many compliments and so many people think my car is so nice and runs good, except they don't know its made of practically crap on the inside!!!grrrrr....and then I start to think...wow, I'm really ugly on the inside...kind of like my car right now. God showed a reflection..and I wasn't really happy with myself for thinking like that and quickly finding blame on others.

Thank you GOd for that lesson!

Then I thought, what if I needed the delay to protect me from a horrible wreck that couldve happened on the freeway...and I won't know the big picture until I got to heaven?? could be...and for a second I thought well,whatever! I just need a new car.
(wrong thought!!)

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!!!

my hood came flying up into my face and I thought the world ended. THAT definitely woke me up, and the drivers on the freeway....and Thank God I was ok, and no one got hurt. But God did make sure I was fully awake to learn my lesson.

It's hard to stay optimistic during rough times, but I learned to filter my thoughts, I learned not to waste time on frustration...I learned to be thankful that God kept me from a possibly worse situation. I learned to trust everything that happens is not out of God's control...even if it is out of my control.

Be Blessed!